MAY LYSSA

by Christina Perry

I know I can't take one more step towards you 
'Cause all that's waiting is regret 
And don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore? 
You lost the love I loved the most 

And I learned to live, half-alive 
And now you want me one more time 

And who do you think you are? 
Runnin' 'round leaving scars 
Collecting your jar of hearts 
And tearing love apart 

You're gonna catch a cold 
From the ice inside your soul 
So don't come back for me 
Who do you think you are? 

I hear you're asking all around 
If I am anywhere to be found 
But I have grown too strong 
To ever fall back in your arms 

And I learned to live, half-alive 
And now you want me one more time 

And who do you think you are? 
Runnin' 'round leaving scars 
Collecting your jar of hearts 
And tearing love apart 

You're gonna catch a cold 
From the ice inside your soul 
So don't come back for me 
Who do you think you are? 


Dear, it took so long just to feel alright
Remember how to put back the light in my eyes
I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed
Cause you broke all your promises

And now you're back
You don't get to get me back

And who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart

You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Don't come back at all

And who do you think you are?
Runnin' 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart

You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
Don't come back for me
Don't come back at all

Who do you think you are?

Who do you think you are?

Who do you think you are?

Leaf falls from the branch
A new leaf will grow come spring
Yet not the same leaf

- James F. -



It's all said and done
It's real and it's been fun
True goodbye are the ones
Never said or explained

In love,
Nothing exists between heart and heart.
Speech is born out of longing,
True description from the real taste.

The one who tastes, knows ;
The one who explains, lies.

How can you describe the true form of Something
In whose presence you are blotted out ?
And in whose being you still exist ?
And who lives as a sign for your journey ?


- Rabia al Basri -

My mind
The ebb and flows as the wind
All is moved and bent to will
Feel the breeze and whatever I bring

Your pray
Float in the wind
Sent as arrows in the air
Like a leaf flowing in a spring
Keep us all from dispair

Don't talk about yesterday or tomorrow. One has gone, one here come. Just do it now. It's a real time. This the real life. Enjoy this real love..

-- Now tell me, what you gonna do when there ain't no where to run ? And what you gonna do when there ain't no where to hide ? Because, he is gonna come for me --

It's just old but I think it's valuable. Some embers remain from the past, reminders of the blaze. Evengthough I don't want to remember but my mind can't forget. You, was set me on fire by all your lesson.

Because of you, your false that made me hurts, my heart grows more experienced. I grew one step farther away from being controlled, by my feelings. I hate to tell this : I miss your fire. I want that rebel moon shining again. Burn me on the hatred and set me a blaze. To became the best women that you ever know.

But you're so distand now and has turned cold with the passage of time. I can't wait until you come back because I don't want to keep getting in your way again. So here I am, sacrificing myself for renewal. For sake of self.

The me who is me now, will always be. As long as I live, I learn and I live. I build a pyre and set myself a blaze. Ash will give way to flame. Out of my ashes, will rise a new phoenix. That's me and you had known that.

I'll soar again, I'll always rise. Amiin.

Salat is something amazing in Islam and it is the way Muslims 'converse' with "Alloh". Muslims make 'salat' (some people incorrectly call this 'prayer') every day, five times a day. Salat is a form of worship previously reserved only for prophets, but during the life of Muhammad, peace be upon him, Alloh included any of the followers of the last prophet (Muhammad, peace be upon him) in this most distinguished and honorable group.

Salat is the second most important act of worship in Islam, after the shahadah (declaration of faith) and is often referred to as the second pillar of Islam.

Salat is obligatory worship and must be performed five times a day at prescribed times. These five times are dawn (Fajr), immediately after noon (Dhuhr), mid-afternoon ('Asr), sunset (Maghrib), and early night (Isha').

Ritual cleanliness and ablution are required before salat, as are clean clothes and location, and the removal of shoes. One may pray individually or communally, at home, outside, virtually any clean place, as well as in a mosque, though the latter is preferred. Special is the Friday noon prayer, called Jum'ah. It, too, is obligatory and is to be done in a mosque, in congregation. It is accompanied by a sermon (Khutbah), and it replaces the normal Dhuhr salat.

There is no hierarchical clerical authority in Islam, no priests or ministers. salats are led by any learned person who knows the Qur'an and is chosen by the congregation. He (or she, if the congregation is all women) is called the imam. There is also no minimum number of congregants required to hold communal salats. salat consists of verses from the Qur'an and other salats, accompanied by various bodily postures - standing, bowing, prostrating and sitting. They are said in Arabic, the language of the revelation, though personal supplications (Du'ah) can be offered in one's own language. Worshippers face the Qiblah, the direction of the Ka'bah in the city of Makkah.

The significance of salat lies in one's maintaining a continuous link to God five times a day, which helps the worshipper avoid misdeeds if he/she performs the salat sincerely. In addition it promotes discipline, God-consciousness and placing one's trust in Alloh alone, and the importance of striving for the Hereafter. When performed in congregation it also provides a strong sense of community, equality and brotherhood/sisterhood.

Special thanks for Ahmed Hossni

Mam, don't you know I cry now ? No, You shouldn't know that. For this time,I just realize how precious you are. I sending my sms because I don't want you know that I cry and make you sad. And I really miss you now,I just want to kiss and hug you. My mother is the greatest woman that I ever had.

I proud to you,mam. Even we always debating and I broke your heart and trust for many times, you still there for me. I know that I can't give you any present except if I can realizing your dream to me. I promise to you mam,I'm sure I become a doctor like your wish to me. I don't care I like or not because there is not the right time to feel like that again.

I can't write about you,I need stop my rush in my heart and head now. I wish your always blessing mam, I hope all the best for you, I want you could see me when I become a doctor,amiinn amiinn amiinn allohumma amiinn. I love you,Mam.

When things in your life seem almost too much to handle,
When 24 Hours in a day is not enough,
Remember the mayonnaise jar and 2 cups of coffee.

A professor stood before his philosophy class
And had some items in front of him.
When the class began, wordlessly,
He picked up a very large and empty mayonnaise jar
and proceeded to fill it with golf balls.

He then asked the students, if the jar was full.
They agreed that it was.
The professor then picked up a box of pebbles and poured
them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly.
The pebbles rolled into the open Areas between the golf balls.

He then asked the students again if the jar was full. They agreed it was.
The professor next picked up a box of sand and poured it into the jar.
Of course, the sand filled up everything else.
He asked once more if the jar was full. The students responded with a unanimous 'yes.'

The professor then produced two cups of coffee from under the table and poured the entire contents into the jar, effectively
filling the empty space between the sand. The students laughed.

'Now,' said the professor, as the laughter subsided,
'I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life.
The golf balls are the important things - family,
children, health, Friends, and Favorite passions –
Things that if everything else was lost and only they remained, Your life would still be full.

The pebbles are the other things that matter like your job, house, and car.
The sand is everything else --The small stuff.
'If you put the sand into the jar first,' He continued,
'there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls.
The same goes for life.
If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff,
You will never have room for the things that are important to you.

So...
Pay attention to the things that are critical to your happiness.
Play with your children.
Take time to get medical checkups.
Take your partner out to dinner.

There will always be time to clean the house and fix the disposal.
'Take care of the golf balls first --
The things that really matter.
Set your priorities. The rest is just sand.'

One of the students raised her hand and inquired what the coffee represented.
The professor smiled.
'I'm glad you asked'.
'It just goes to show you that no matter how full your life may seem,
there's always room for a couple of cups of coffee with a friend.'

Please share this with other "Golf Balls"
I just did ....... ^_^
Special thanks to my lovely friend,Krismamela Alfian

This is my result from iPersonic personality test : Spontaneous Idealist.

Spontaneous Idealists are creative, lively and open-minded persons. They are humorous and dispose of a contagious zest for life. Their enthusiasm and sparkling energy inspires others and sweeps them along. They enjoy being together with other people and often have an uncanny intuition for their motivations and potential. Spontaneous Idealists are masters of communication and very amusing and gifted entertainers. Fun and variety are guaranteed when they are around. However, they are sometimes somewhat too impulsive in dealing with others and can hurt people without really meaning to do so, due to their direct and sometimes critical nature.

This personality type is a keen and alert observer; they miss nothing which is going on around them. In extreme cases, they tend to be oversensitive and exaggeratedly alert and are inwardly always ready to jump. Life for them is an exciting drama full of emotionality. However, they quickly become bored when things repeat themselves and too much detailed work and care is required. Their creativity, their imaginativeness and their originality become most noticeable when developing new projects and ideas - they then leave the meticulous implementation of the whole to others. On the whole, Spontaneous Idealists attach great value to their inner and outward independence and do not like accepting a subordinate role. They therefore have problems with hierarchies and authorities.

If you have a Spontaneous Idealist as your friend, you will never be bored; with them, you can enjoy life to the full and celebrate the best parties. At the same time, they are warm, sensitive, attentive and always willing to help. If Spontaneous Idealists have just fallen in love, the sky is full of violins and their new partners are showered with attention and affection. This type then bubbles over with charm, tenderness and imagination. But, unfortunately, it soon becomes boring for them once the novelty has worn off. Boring everyday life in a partnership is not for them so that many Spontaneous Idealists slip from one affair into another. However, should the partner manage to keep their curiosity alive and not let routine and familiarity gain the upper hand, Spontaneous Idealists can be inspiring and loving partners.

Adjectives which describe your type: spontaneous, enthusiastic, idealistic, extroverted, theoretical, emotional, relaxed, friendly, optimistic, charming, helpful, independent, individualistic, creative, dynamic, lively, humorous, full of zest for life, imaginative, changeable, adaptable, loyal, sensitive, inspiring, sociable, communicative, erratic, curious, open, vulnerable.

As a Spontaneous Idealist you are one of the extroverted personality types. You enjoy working in a colorfully diverse group of people who interest and inspire you. Working in a “secluded room” is not your thing. Your sense for the motivation of others is almost eerie. You constantly observe that which happens around you and have no problems noticing all sorts of things simultaneously or communicating with several people at the same time.

Your enthusiasm is contagious to others and that is why your colleagues and friends all appreciate you as an important member of your team. Your articulateness and your sensitive ear for nuances in conversations with others obviously play a role. For you, this team-oriented environment is very important because you need to receive positive feedback and recognition like other people need air to breathe. It would be practically impossible for you to contribute everything you need to maintain your high ideals, by yourself.

Variety, challenges and fun are important ingredients of your area of responsibility. You appreciate receiving new stimulation, meeting new people, and continuously collecting unique experiences. However, too much routine, too much detail work and the necessity to stick with one project for a very long time is not your thing. Your strength are creative problem solutions, discovering new ways and opportunities, the conceptualization of new ideas on one hand, but not so much their concrete implementation on the other. Ideally, you have a staff of capable colleagues that takes over your concepts and runs with them.

Your working environment should be chosen to continuously offer new developments that you can then deal with and by which you can measure yourself. Once you figure out at that a profession can only offer you limited professional and personal self-improvement alternatives you would probably become very unhappy. Particularly for people of your type it is worthwhile to once in a while consider a radical change in your profession. You will be able to deal with the associated demands without a problem as long as your curiosity and need for self-development are satisfied at the same time.

When you are in love, you easily outperform all other personality types in terms of enthusiasm and panache. Then your commitment knows no limits. You go out of your way in your eagerness to express your affection, and in your happiness, you are ready to embrace the entire world. When watching your attempts to flirt, one can’t help but think about a puppy dancing happily around its new playmate. Then for you simply nothing exists but your newfound love. „Hold your horses!“ - “Discretion is the better part of valor!” - “All that glitters is not gold!” - these worldly wisdoms are nothing but a waste of time.

With the entire spontaneity of your personality type, you instinctively immerse yourself in your emotions because you are sure that this time you have found the perfect partner. And you want everything here and now. You can probably go through as many divorces and separations as you want, but you are never going to learn from experience and at the age of 70 - and with shining eyes - you are still ready to walk down the aisle. Your friends may sometimes have a problem watching this, but they can only shake their heads in exasperation, and hope and pray, because in those moments you won’t accept advice from anyone. Then it would be easier to get in the way of a Tsunami.

In a long-term partnership you are a charming, affectionate, and unconventional partner, always good for a surprise, always there if you are needed, always ready for a loving compliment. As generous as you are with your feelings, so do you love to spend money and lavish your partner with gifts - sometimes even causing the very security minded and conservative types in the relationship to get a little weak in the knees. Should they now be happy that you abducted them to a luxury hotel for a romantic weekend, or should they be concerned whether there will be a problem when the next rent payment becomes due? Everyday things only interest you peripherally anyway; sometimes you walk with a downright childish confidence through life believing that the universe, fate or some other supreme powers are going to make sure that at the end everything will work out. So, why worry and save? It is interesting that this sometimes even works!

One day soon I'm planning to leave,packing my bags and never to comeback. I won't stay here to labor and grieve. In this place,the past still fill my heart and rapidly the thoughts of what has been dissipates easily. A passion too fierce,too powerful to die. But there is only the future of the past as I grow nearer to God's eternal pearly gate,where all cautious faithfully stored memories.

All I need now is to clear up what I owe and keep exploring the endless possibilities of the unknown life. So I take shots of adrenaline cause that's the way I receive immunization against the depression. Sooner,the countless days and nights would pass and then in time I will reach the destination I ought to be.

It is this present that allow me to stay afloat of what is recalled to the mind and I have become stronger. It was uncertain though what my voyage would be but this is the future holds I travels alone to follow my destiny. Do I run my life or is it running me ? Am I run too fast or too slow it seems ? I don't know how fake feels so I gotta keep it real. That's the calmness of the ocean would come to keep me alive.

Give me every morning that's full of grace so I can get in the mood. I'm feeling more confident now using my common sense. I've become brave as the light of the day and it will leading me to the first sweet taste of freedom.

Nasty Lazy Crazy
Hufftthhh
Turn on my soul
Get it back my consciousness
This storm of revolution in myself is too hard
Don't give up or turn back !!
Remember who u are !!!

Even so slowly u take that
This is still too stubborn to changing
Be patient and keep moving
The fluctuation is normal for adaptation

Don't thinking this is for someone else !!!
Ignoring if he feels all of this is for him
That's his right but not my bussiness
Let it be the God gave the truth for him

Belonging Getting Winning Yeaaahhhh

Your wave make me flow
Your move make me sway
Your deep let me to dive
Your silence give me a peace

So confidence if i dance with u
So gentle if u touching me
Always be united and never be apart
Even only play this monoton game

Let it flow and make me fly
Coz i never let u cry with this chance
U can always try sing some stupid song until we die

no lies
no betrayal
no hurts
no tears
u r a loyal thing
u r an immortal creature
u r the precious gift
u r my long live love

Gemini
by Steven Taylor

Gemini
Two hearts,two souls,one mind
A most peculiar sign
One day water,next day wine
Handsome males and ladies fine

Gemini
Upfront and genuine
A "got yo back" type friend
One day receive,the next day send
Will seldom break,but will always bend

Gemini
Full of romance,wit and fears
They look much younger than their years
One day laughter,next day tears
Much more to them than what appears

Gemini
The best folks you could know
They understand ebb and flow
Your trusted mate or your most feared foe
Ready the side you will show

I pray for the strength and for everything that i'm gonna do
And keep being benevolent as I can
Coz now I'm turning the page
And I can see the rising sun at there

Sometimes what you fear the most is what you need
And when all the walls around are broken down,that's time to make your move
Something is ending and something begins
So it's time to make one last appeal for the life you lead

Have u feel empty ? Is it empty a feel ? Cause i think if u feel empty then u can't feel anything so that calling empty feel... So what could u do if u feel empty ? Doesn't need some symphaty or emphaty ? I think that useless,both of them.. Cause u know, what your feeling is empty now.. Is it right if u feel like that ? Is it important thing and it could be a part of your psychology development ? Or it could be a damn think that should u resolve as soon as possible ? I don't have idea about that.. I just spending my time with that feel and let it flow..

That one important thing i have known,empty is the beginning of refilling.. And empty is the peak of everything that should be decrease soon,like an inertia point.. Maybe it's a cycle,and when u feel empty then is a sign to start a new period.. Maybe u should know this.. When i want to write something in here,i feel empty and no idea,nothing !!! But i keep write something and thinking.. And u have seen now,i've got one posting hahaa..

If u feel empty is not mean that u stop to thinking.. The feel it's not equal with the think,that totally definitely zackly different.. Thinking make you keep it flow and pass this feel.. Be sure with what your thinking and the empty is refilling.. Gud luck ^_^